| I’m the happiest person in the world
How it feels wanting for 1st time ever for my 60 years of life, to be alive, and even more, wanting to be Happy, yes very, to me it’s being able to feel what the best things in our lives are I don’t mean physical sights such as a small baby, it’s the way things make me feel inside , my entire body and mind. Thinking perhaps even fidgety, a feeling maybe of excitement in all my being. The draw back is I’m looking to others feeling the same, most often they aren’t probably because they’ve felt it, all their life and I most constantly haven’t it’s a good, pleasant extremely joyous and rewarding state to be in. Most say it’s good and very very easy to have been privileged to feel.
Contentment also is a very new word I’ve understood for the first time in my life. This is going to last; I know it’s going to stay with me because I’m contented in it. Never had this before Makes peace and joy easy to enjoy. When I go to bed happily at night, I know in the morning another exciting and happy day lies waiting for me. Never before has this ever been the case.
Knowledge and understanding have become a great part of my world. My mind is and not occupied with bad and unhappy thoughts of despair. Being clear makes learning easy and enjoyable. I want to learn anything good that will be of help to help others to begin to break free of their demon. That’s an honour, and something before I would only ever only dream about. Now obviously have a purpose and goals in place. Whatever I can do on the rest of my journey in life to help other suffering folk I will. I try hard to listen to anyone I talk to anyone often known or not. I want everyone to have happy and more enjoyable times. Soon I start training in becoming a listening volunteer for the Samaritans. Wow what an honour and privilege. I will do my very best to do this and am so looking forward to the challenge.
Before I’d always felt as if I new I loved my family now I know real love. I don’t have to keep on earning their love and proving it. I know in my head and mind my love for them now many growing friendships. They love me, Me yes never did I really believe that or except it. I’m not a bad or evil person, I’m a good and trustworthy person wanting others to enjoy me and me them. I deserve happiness, love and all other good things Yes, I do make mistakes but I learn from them and move on. I don’t dwell and persecute myself because of them.
I’ve always had hope inside me, when as a very young child, that one day it would be ok. My hope was part of the faith of God that’s always been within me. My presence never far from, ever practical Christianity each week I took myself to our local church and just waited. There I received my heart of hope. Crossing, how I describe it, many bridges of help of various ways to the final destination. Some 60 years later I’m not bitter and twisted by my past it’s made me into how I describe the happiest person in the world. Amen 2016 | 
